This post is written by the guest author Suchandra Dutt.
It was the day before the result of my twelfth final. We, my family and friends, were all excited and just on the verge of celebrating my result with bang as I never scored less than 80% of marks.
Next day, I dressed up like a princess and went to school before time. It was great time there, so many friends met after 3 month and talked about everything to anything.
Then the moments came we were waiting for.
We all jammed in our seminar room and our math teacher was announcing the name with the score: “Somadatta – 95%; Jhumki – 92%; Kiran – 88%.”
Now it’s my turn. Yeah, for the first time, I got little tensed. And then listened my name announced: “Suchandra Dutt – 56%.”
I was thinking, “Did my teacher read that right?” But my bad luck, he read that right.
And that single scorecard changed everything around me. It changed the way my friend used to talk me. It changed the way my family used to see through my eyes. It changed the way my teacher, neighbors used to love me. It changed my brightest days into darkest nightmares.
Was life easy? No! The taunts, the negligences and the humiliations made my future dusky in my own eyes – brought me down from a sweet-talented girl to a girl with no future.
Oneday I decided, “Enough is enough. If they don’t love me with my failure, do they really love me at all? Am I, as a person, not worthy enough for their love? I don’t wanna live anymore if no one loves me for what I’m.”
But my inner voice yelled to me,
“Stop Suchandra. A bad score is just a fullstop in the essay of life. Don’t make your single failure to your final failure. It’s a challenge – the challenge to prove everybody out there that you’re not a loser – take that challenge!”
And I took that challenge.
Though in the next two years, literally, I couldn’t succeed to get my real-self back – after two years, finally, I acted on my chellenge and took admission in an engineering college.
And when, after one long year, another academic result hit my life, I proved every one out there that Suchandra wasn’t a loser. Because my scorecard showed: “Suchandra Dutt – 80%.”
Yes, I ain’t a loser. I just lost once. I didn’t let my single failure to become my final failure.
~ Suchandra Dutt
Suchandra Dutt is a columnist and professional speaker on the subject of peak-performance. She is currently working on her book on creative writing. An engineer by education, she stays in Kolkata with her husband and a little angel.
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